Its really amazing how you can be at an all time low and if you can stay strong and wait it out things start to come back together sometimes in ways you never expected.

2009 has had some truly fucked up moments in my life. I've lost friends but I gained some too. I also let my loneliness get the better of me, I fell for a girl that I shouldn't have and then did some fucked up shit my self. I know who really has my back and who never did. But when i think about it I kind of want to thank the peeps who turned there backs on me this year. It made me stronger and wiser. Some I might start talking to again no promises there but I might just so that the drama will end. I'm not gonna forget what all has went down though. Once trust is broken it cant be fixed. I won't ever be as close with certain peeps but thats how life goes.

I had a break down these last few months. There were nights I just wanted to end it but now I'm glad I didnt. I can gladly say that Matt Stewart has his mind back in check. Thanks to all the peeps who stuck with me thru the rough times and gave me words of wisdom. I can't put in words how much that means to me.

As for 2010 I got a feeling its gonna be a good year.